Love Devours my Sanity

Hurry up & ORD!

2006-09-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

Come on..!

7more mths to ORD!..

Hurry up, i wanna get this NS done..!!!

Wah lau~.. Juz a few more mths... So happy, yet soo tensed..
Cuz i'm so impatient..

hey, how long eh i've not been updating ma blog?..

Sorry ya.. NS is a BUSY 2-year period of ur life.. Not only dat la... hehehhe....
Evry weekend i've been busy wit ma band & ma lessons wit Mayuni... Then, the fasting mth is coming, followed by Hari Raya..haaiiisshhhh~~..
ouh, talking bout Mayuni eh... I've learnt sooo much frm him bout music n d music scene..
Brought me to a wider view of the world of music & musicians...
ouh manz... & i haven't done ma h/w yet... (homework????)

i've got to list down the triads of each chord... a Major chord & a Minor chord for each..
i'm still stuck with intervals & triads manz... ooouhhh manzz... Den i still hafta think of some story 1st, so dat i can make a lyric out of it... hmmzz... i'm not good in lyric-making..
i got a D7 for ma malay....but Mayuni found ma 1st lyric quite nice..
hahahaha...

He said he's gonna combine ma lyric n ma melody if i can finish up i give em to him..& asked me to sing on ma very own masterpiece... & make a song for me... (WOW!)
I wonder how good he is & how small i am comparing to him... he's great manz...

ok ok... so ma birthday had passed...well i still got to b in camp on ma birthday...haiishhh~..
but on d nyte got to spend time wit ma family.. after dat spent some time outside with Mas, Juli, Iskandar & Sani.. got cake on ma face.. thankz peeps... now i got pimples growin again!

ouh yar... someone hu's been disappearing for nearly 1 & 1/2yrs... suddenly contact me back on ma birthday...

Nadia...

I've been looking for here evrywhere... wondering where has she been... y she suddenly disappeared in ma life..? i dunno...well.. she's ma ex-galfren... the one who i really cared d most out of all ma ex.. cuz she's.... ermm.... weakling?... hahaha.. i dunno how to describe it... She juz dunno wats ryte n rong... but she's happy-go-lucky.. & i'll be there to listen to her probz.. sometimes nagged her of things she did rong..ouh well, past is past.. She definitely dun remember all this anyway..

Wen she contacted me back on ma birthday.... i was soo happy.... it was wat i wished for, actualli.. soo fucken happy, d best surprise i had... but at d same time, i was fucken sad too... Yah... was happy she came back.. i thot i cld get ma chance to go out wit her again...juz like old times.. but, she's already someone else's future spouse... & she have a kid..almost 6mths old now... Andriell's her name... hehe.. saw Riell's pic.. sooo cute sia...(mcm mak dia jugak).. so... yah... nadia & her guy r now taking care of riell & in d process of getting married soon... Evrything changed so fast, hasn't it?

well... at least i noe she's happy now.. & frm d bottom of ma heart, I'm really happy for u nadia.. :-) hehhe.. a wonderful gal hu, somehow, affected & chg ma life so much.. Yupz, she's 1 of ma unforgettable memories..(come on, there're few more i haven't mention..yet..) Hope to see baby riell one of these days ya~..

haisshh~... its maself whom i'm upset wit..

Ehemz...!!

ok.. so now its almost 10pm... gotta rush & do ma Triads.. Cant do ma lyrics.. haishh.. gotta wait for inspiration to come... ahakz... ouhh manzz...

'B' Signing Outz..

Happy National Day..

2006-08-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

Haishh..

hmmz let's c.. Been a few weeks already since i last blogged...

Well, nothing much happen lately..

Sunday , Went to bugis.. Met Ayun, Adi , Rin, Zul, Nizam, Azam, Cicak & Azmi.. Walked ard bugis junction.. We went to eat at no other best place than our favorite Tong Sen(tempat baik dok)... den we walked thru suntec, & to esplanade.. took alot of snapshotz.. play stupid funny lil' games... i think lots of people looked at us sia... ouh nvm ..

den ard 9pm, Ayun & Rin had to go off... so we walked towards raffles place.. took lotsa lotsa lotsa snapshots.. till i gave maself a headache...
Well wat happened was i took a pic of me while i was spinning ard & ard... Ouch... but hey, it came out with nice pictures.. Imagine its night time & lights r all ard u.. U spin ard taking urself a snapshot.. *Flash!!*
muahhaaha... wanna noe how it looks like? y dont u take a snap urself.. haha..

Haisshh... Monday didn't go anywhere... was in camp till evening.. Yest (Tue) we had games day in Camp.. came home at 1pm.. sleep.. sLeep.. sleep.. woke up ard 4.30 pm..
Met Mak(masyura) at 5.30pm at MRT.. went to Clementi , ate at .. errr.. somewhere at clementi.. got to Dover & fetch Bapak(fifi) frm camp.. wen to city hall ard 9pm..
Bloody Damn Fuck, the entire place was packed with ppl like sardines.. Went to food junction at raffles shooping centre since Bapak wanna eat.. & i ate again .. :p muahahaa...

Adi came at ard 9.45pm.. den we walked to 7-11 at Citylink .. meet up with Ayun, Rin, Anand & the rest of our SC Gang.. Later, we went to... actually i dunno where they brought me to, nvr gone to d plc b4.. there were so many ppl sia... & its 10.30pm.. we walked till we reached somewhere at d furthest side of Esplanade.. den got a place somewhere near the big bridge.. chill, talk, laugh.. til its already 11.30.. Me & Nizam took the bus 10.. Reached home ard 12.30 i think.. or is it 1am... ahahaa.. i dunno.. Btw, say roziana(shitz, 4got how to spell her name) frm singapore idol 1 & 2.. hahaha.. she was singing R&B or was it rapping.. well i dunno... she got a great voice.. ma sec sch classmate.. hehehe..

slept late again.. woke up at 1.20pm dis afternoon... *yawn* & now waiting for Azmi's call..
Goin clubbing.. (HOPEFULLY)

Haish, anyways... meet dis gal.. she's like a model sia.. damn blonde... but u think i fucking care?? muahhha.. she's a bit.......too horny... sent me lotsa lotsa pics of her.. was shocking she sent her 'dirty' pics too... hahaha.. Wow... ouh well, she's just temporary.. i think evry gal i met is temporary.. yah.. the heart doesnt feel d pain nimore, it's numb already.. ;-) ouh yah, heard seri's been having some tough times recently... pity her.. ouh well, let her be alone then. haha..

hmmmzz... Nway, i couldnt believe someone read ma blog recently..

I mean... ma last blog was like last yr july , & i thot ppl wont be reading ma blog now..
ouh well... dunno how come she noes i'm blogging again..

haissh~.... memories...

Ouh well... starting evry sunday, i will b ard bugis.. took that music course frm Mayuni Omar..
Damn, i'll b d only junior student .. dat means Mayuni's gonna teach me one on one.. sheesh..

k, gonna watch fireworks.. so i'll blog next time k peepz..

'B' signing outz..

2006-07-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

The way things ended,
it was so sad but I wish I could just forget you
because im tired of thinking
about what we could've had...

What the hell..

'B' Signing outz...

Ouh well..

2006-07-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

Haishh~....

Watching TV now... Cradle to the Grave showing on 5..

Hmmzz..

Ppl create blogs for their personal usage...
But sometimes, i'm wondering wat blogs are for actualli...

I hate assumptions...

Really...

Well, we understand dat assumptions come frm our basic instincts..
But wat the hell.. we r intelligent enuff to ask ryte...

Well yah.. short stories lead to assumptions..

Ok fine, lets juz get to d point.

ppl assume things, wich can almost lead to some fights. If there're somethings that will put some assumptions to this blog.. please dun. Ask me if u wanna noe more bout any of ma blog stories..

As wat ppl haf said, 'Assumptions are the mothers of all fucked-ups'.

Cuz ma blog is juz a big pack of short stories..

I dun get it... why shld we assume things without asking.. & somehow, some ppl hu got the wrong idea of ma blog wld blame me.

Haissh~...

This was d actual reason y i fucken stopped blogging last time.. so fucken sick of blogging..
Cuz there'll b ppl hu put things to their own assumptions in silence. C'mon ppl... we are already grown-ups.

Haish~...

Ouh wat the hell.. These r the facts. for more info, ask me.

Azmi is still SINGLE.

I'm still SINGLE.

Shira's ma close fren, d one hu tried to help me get over seri. Shira's attached, btw..

Ida's single & bitchy. None of the 3 of us like her attitude..

& as long as things r true, i'll blog those facts down. i dun blog down lies or hoax..

Please, dun assume...

Unless u had d same nytemare almost evry nyte..n it became true.. dats diff...

*Uh-oh, here comes one of ma lullaby stories again*

Like me, wen ma instincts came, had dis nytemare almost evry nyte of seri smooching n d mushy2 stuffs wit another guy.. it happened for bout 2+weeks i think..
Till one fine nyte later i went to find out maself n saw wit ma very own eyes ryte in front of me..

yah, wat i saw was ma nytemare.

wat i dreamt came true. most of it.

How i got ma assumptions ryte?

-Shut ma mouth n see for maself..

Thats d best thing how to get ma assumptions 100% true or not..

but it hurts...

it really hurts..

Fucken really hurts. .

Ouh well... love is juz a cycle...
-1st, u r single...
-den comes frenship...
-den u fall in love.. ur happiest days of ur life..
-lead to fights, lies, cheats, unfaithfulness..
-after dat, breakup.. lost, upset, misery, ur saddest days of ur life(wich will take a long period of time)..
-den slowly u wound is healed, u finally accept that u r single...

after dat, comes frenship again....

n it goes on & on.. keep repeating n repeating... till d one hu is destined to b with u comes along( IF God gives u any)...

Ouh well... wat a long fucken blog i'm writing..

Dammit... Didnt get to see Cradle to the Grave...!

'B' Signing outz...

A pit-stop.. & a lively Baybeats Concert..

2006-07-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

Weee~...

Nothing to do on sunday.... Juz got home frm Isk's place... *yawn*

Hmmmzz...

Wanna Noe wat 'pit-stop' i'm talking about??..

okay... ;-)

On friday.. Went to camp in d morning s usual... Then Evry Friday afternn ard 3pm, I never fail to go for d AHM (Army half Marathon) training....
Its held at either pasir ris park or East coast beach... & they set d training at East Coast dis week..
Me n Azmi, d usual thing , we ran together... dis time d distance is 10km.. (WTF!)

We ran side by side & were sweating like fcuking dogs sia....

Den halfway thru, saw a group of gals disturbing d guys running ahead of us.. they were havin their BBQ pit.. well... i thot they were annoying... but s we ran closer n closer n passed by... i notice this 1 familliar face among them... she smiled n waved at me... i thot hu sia...
The smile was soo familiar....

it was her! Shira!! (jeng jeng jeng)

hahah... i smiled n waved back at her...

Hu's she? well... a long story, find out urselves eh... :p

After d run, was already bout 5.40pm.. i called her strate away..
Jokin ard wit her dat she was damn cheeky wit d army guyz... hahaha.. den i ask her if me n azmi cld stop by her pit 4 a while, lagipun, Azmi wanna see hu shira is... (hahaha, muke tak tau malu sia kiter)

We ride to d nearest carpark there... went to shower... some gals disturb us....saw us naked.. haha... Found out that they were shira's frens wen we got to her pit... Finally got to meet shira, wit her pink spaghetti, pink shorts n pink bra(i think)... evrything pink.. Act cute uh shira.. :P wahahaha...

I miss her alot sia... been quite a while since we last met~..

Hmmmzz.. We got to sit n talk alone together most of d time.. well, of cuz la , i nvr ignored Azmi.. in fact, d gal hu disturb us in d toilet flirted wit him all d way till nyte..
Me, azmi , d gal hu disturbed us in d toilet(ida) n her 2 frens went drinking dat nyte..

shira didnt...

At 1st i didnt wanna start drinking again, thot of juz sitting beside azmi...
I noe shira gonna be mad at me if i drink... But den Ida drank till she's drunk n attitude was horrible... she acted so horny towards azmi... hahahaahaha... Got to noe Ida also got Anakmelayu acc.. & she asked me bout my relatnshp btwn me n ma ex(seri)..cuz she's also in anakmelayu.com...

Wahlau... i think d whole of Anakmelayu.com nows about me n seri sia..

Anywayz..

Me n azmi cant stand Drunken Gals... n i cant let azmi finish up d whole bottles, cuz he's riding n i'm d his passenger! So... dats how i've got drunk dat nyte... i helped finish d alcohol... well.. hope shira forgive me in a situation like dis... Cuz Ida was drunk till she dropped lying on d sand, sound stead azmi, kissed him!!

Wahlau, if i hadn't finish d drinks, ida wld finish up d rest n got even worse... sheesh...

Anyway, overall we had a great time there.... shira's frenz were frenly..... ida was way too over.. hahaha... shira's sweet~... :p

Ok...den on sat ... went to ma grandma's place at afternoon...She's getting better...
Den went to Soundlink studios wit mom n dad.... Applied d Song composing course...
cost a few hundred buckz... starts at August...So i'm gonna meet Mayuni Omar evry week...learn all d secrets of composing music & songs frm him.. hahaha..

Thgen late evening ard 6+pm went to Taka Seoul Garden wit ma Band mates... Ate our hearts out... yummy~... it was splendid! ;-)
ard 9pm, we reached esplanade n chilled there at d Baybeatz gig concert... Fully packed wit ppl.. so crowded...

The bands made their great performances... very good showmanship... especially Angela's Dish.. haha...

Reached home bout 12mn... chatted wit shira on d fon till 1+am , den went to sleep...

Haaaaaiiisshh~...

Tired... but den cant sleep... s usual... Arrghh~~

My lil bro wanna use da comp... k Gd nyte Peepz...

'B' signing outz...*

no title..

2006-07-09T13:36:00.000+08:00

Juz woke up..

Haiishh~..

Reached home at 5am.. SUPPOSED to go Double O..but den memberz2 sume bubble..
haishh... thot of drinking last nyte.. but nvr mind. So me left wit 2 buddies of mine went to play computer games at peninsula till ard 2am..

Went to simpang bedok after dat.. eat.. watch soccer.. we thot it was France vs Italy..
but it was Portugal vs Germany... germany won ryte??

hmmzz, dunno la.. we didnt watch till fulltime.. Met isk at simpang bedok..

kerek siak~.. frm last time since i know him until now, nvr chg his attitude..
ni lah melayu zaman skrg. dah ade motor, prangai sundal.
mcm mau sepak je muke kerek dia..

me n ma buddy Diarni set off after match half time & went to chill ard at my hood.

hahhaha, we always chill ard n talk bout shitz.. He always talk bout Baya & me always talk bout Seri .. Yeah, its been tough times for us. well, Diarni's goin thailand soon. he's chosen for Overseas training.

ouh yah... i came back last thur nyte frm d jungle... wahlau damn tiring ...
Didnt sleep at all in d forest.. the training was somewhat so freaking tiring..
haishh.. & my next outfield training will be on sept.. During fasting mth... WTH..

So now gotta get ready & meet up with Alep & Aim.. We gonna meet Ahmad cuz he broke his arm.. most prob a motor or car accident uh..

K chiaoz..

'B' Signing Outz..

Back here again..

2006-07-03T17:51:00.000+08:00

halloo there...~

B's back..

Azri's back..

Boi's back...

ouh wat the heck...

whatever u all r callin' me nowadays...

I'm back here again..

Sorrie for not updating ma blog... been lazy.. n been buzy...

hmmzz... so where shld i start...

*think*

Ouh yeah...s u noe it, i'm in the army... already been 1yr+ serving dis country..

& in just another short 10mths n i'll b thru... (finally!)

so wat happened wen i was away....?

well...

somethings happened.... haha

Everything like went so fast...

1st few mths in army... i became Botak..(duh)

hmmzz..

ouh yah... since the saddest ending btwn me n yana..

been single for more den 2yrs... well.. nothing much happen during dis time..

only started to haf insomnia.. cant slp most of d days..

sleeping very very late..even didn't slp at all sometimes..

my sleeping disorder getting worse, is it??

hehehehee.. ouh yah.. n i've got darker...

haish~..

Anywayz...i've nothing much to blog about..

hmmzz...

ouh.... yah...

After more den 2yrs being alone, torn apart n pessimistic towards maself..

i've got to noe a gal.........

Who opened up ma heart back.. healed da pain..

I thot i wld nvr be in love again..

Ok ok...

Let's not get so mushy2...

make it short eh...~

Well, basically, i'm single again now..

never to love again.. no no..

dun u think love is like a cycle?..1st, its flirting.. den love.. den break up followed by heartbreak.. den back to flirting again~...

Ouh man.. its time i'll just break dat cycle.. i've been so fcuking stupid wen in love.

i still cant forget her..

Although the time went so fast foward..

the possibility dat she could open up ma heart back made me loVe her so much..

really miss her..

haish...~

Well... i'm tired of being angry all the time.. dun wish to b in a relatnship nomore..

Yah, i lied d 1st time.. but dis time is really for a much painful reason..

something that i'll nvr ever forgive..

haisshhhh~~... But she made me learn sumthing..

I learned to b stronger..

Like wat a fren of mine told me..

'love is something u haf to wait.. that is called destiny.. no matter wat happens, juz b strong..depend on no one but urself'

hahaha.. that's wat he told me.. eh , if ur reading dis, thx for d advise ..

thx eh matrip.. muahahhaa..

k... i've gotta go now.. wish i cld blog more.. but gotta go back to kranji camp by 9pm tonyte.. will b away till saturday k.. gonna b bz in d jungle.. haha..

take care peepz..

'B' signing outz..

So long & Good nyte..

2005-07-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

Tonyte i've really felt that my ITE days are over... the end..

Gonna miss lotsa people, lotsa things... so many memories..so many secrets, but till now i still keep 'em within me..

btw... shitz... 1 of my secrets leaked out yest wen me n my bunch o' ITE pals played Truth or Dare.. darn.. But it's ok lar... mayb it's time for me to stop keeping things within myself..mayb not..

ouh well... 1stly, my smoking habit's got worse.. increased to 1 hard pack per day...
But wats even worse is i've started back my drinking habits..
yea.. farhana sat beside me wen i was drunk... SC pit on 2nd july... hahha, didnt realise i was drunk n crying.. well.. she tried consoling me & we end up sharing our probs..
Thanx 4 talking me outz, giving me motivation to keep trying to move on.. :-)

Hmmz.. juz got to noe dat i'm suffering frm insomnia.. can see all d symptoms for several mths, but didnt realise wat sickness it is until recently.. haha..

Haiisshh~.. Worse comes to worse.. dunno wat more will come to me..

Saturday, 9th july... i'm gonna b away for quite a long time... Pulau tekong serving my NS..finally...

Azri go bye-bye..

Gonna miss my ITE Buddies..

Especially IT2p... & of Course, my Students' Council members... haaishhh..

Hope all of u wont forget me... Hope all of u never ever forget me...

...although i noe u will.~

& mayb i wont b blogging anymore after NS...

"B" Signing outz... So long & Gd Nytez...

Frustration

2005-06-22T00:57:00.000+08:00

Juz dont read dis post.. its not gonna b nice.

Sometimes i juz feel like banging my head on the mirror... or create a suicidal massacre down the neighbourhood.. or juz put something in me dat makes me doze off & never wake up again..

Arrgghhhhh.... feel like screaming to my highest pitch in d mid of dis damn nyte..

i hate nytez..

aarrggghhhh, my damn frustation wit myself.... feel like digging my brains out...
Dun ask y.. cuz i dunno why i'm sooo frustrated. i dunno wats bothering me..
i dunno wat m i talking about... i dunno.. i need someone to dig my brains out.. Kill Me.

all i noe is dat i juz want this brain of mind to stop thinking thousands of stuffs & juz let me sleep!!!!! so much to think of... so much to worry of.. so much to take care of..
i have not been venging my anger for like 2-3 years..
keeping all from within me. i have to... i'm trying so hard to stop da violence in me...

But it seems i can see myself changing back to whom i used to b...

i've started back to my drinking habits...
Yeahh...

how i fucking hate myself...soo much hatred in me, so much frustration, anger, vengeance... soo much i'm keeping within myself... it's slowly coming back out... i hate sarcasm. i hate rumors.i hate love. i hate evry single things in life.

& i won't b surprised if i'll b in mental hospital ..

it's obviously obvious that i'm gonna b a crazy guy..... but i'm not crazy..i'm juz a lil' unwell...

Arrrrgghhh... i'm juz trying soo hard to put myself to sleep... evrynyte... My sleeping habit has worsen since almost 2years back... i hate myself... i cant stop my mind frm thinking soo much... a million thoughts...

i dun even noe wat the hell i'm typing... i'm juz soo Frustrated with myself..with my life..
i've soo many things, problems, memories that my brain wants to think of..a stubborn mind, it seems... Evryday, i feel like i'm d rope, n Good side of me is pulling me towards it, n my Bad side at d opposite end is trying to pull me near it too... its like i'm in a tug-of-war ..

awwww shit, forget it, ppl cant undstd wat i'm trying to mean. Stupid me.
Having a life like mine is so complicated. I am my own worst Enemy.

arrgghhh, juz need lotsa beer liquor wine stout ryte now...!!!! kills my stress for tonyte.

Fuck ar.. somebody stop me from drinking.. punch me, kick me, kill me if u haf to. The Devil has finally possessed my once again. mayb later one day u'll see me with handcuffs. Fuck life.

'B' Signing outz.

Some photos during Masquerade Nyte '05

2005-06-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

Okay peepz...

Sorri to keep u waiting...

i noe ur hoping to see those pics on Dinner & Dance..

K.. here r some of d photos i've received...

*Baz, LizG & Wini*

*Me, Myself & 'B'*

*woah!! 4 Beauties!! Nana, Yana, Rin & Baz.. Heeee~*

*Dudes & Babes of the Nyte*

*What r u looking at???*

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*3 Lovely Couples*

*Remember these Babes? Yumz yumz.. ooppss.. :p*

*Nice pose, peepz!!!*

Haaisshhh~... ok, that's all i have.. sorri!!.. ahakz.. niway... going to bed now..
Soo long & Gd nyte~!

'B' Signing outz...

Bored~

2005-06-07T08:18:00.000+08:00

Woke up real early today.. 7.12am~.. heeeee~~

Dreamt of dat ssat nyte, Dinner & Dance..

& da 1st thing i woke up, i smsed all my bunch 'o ITE mates..

'Good Morning' messages, of course.. i guess i've start to miss them so much.. haaaissh~

Already took my shower.. now i'm thinking where do i wanna go today..
that doesn't dound ryte.. actually i noe where to go today..
the question is... Who do i wanna go with today..~ Heeee~
i wanna go watch that movi... really sia, cant wait.. HHGTTG ( Hitchikers' guide to the Galaxy)

Asked alot of ppl.. well, most said they're bz today.. da rest got other reasons.. haaisshh~
Bored~ bored~ bored~

Ouh well, looks like i gonna watch another movie by myself den..

Well, i got dis one logic in my mind since i was in secondary school.. Friends aren't Forever, u noe.. they come & go.. Ahaaa~ & wat i mean is, ur frenz aren't by ur side all the time. Sooner or later Each of us will b bz with our own journey in life.. Actually.. dats a fact wat! u'll see....

hmmm awrytez... gonna fresh up myself wit a breakfast & going outz...

'B' signing outz..

Dinner & Dance Masquerade Nyte '05

2005-06-05T12:51:00.000+08:00

Juz woke up~

Had a great nyte yesterday~

Dinner & Dance was a real success~

except for da food.. it wasn't dat unique.. hehehe~

hmmm.. evrything wen out great.. Finally my 7 months of full commitment for ITE's 1st Dinner n dance paid off..

Da event started at 6pm.. but i came at 2pm.. me & d OC(Organising Committee) had to get ready early... n also we had to check the sound systems.. took a long time though~..

Aizat & me were the frontstage crew.. As the show started.. i got a peek at d audience.. Yeah!! it was almost full house!! weeee~~.. Yati also came, even though she still couldn't walk properly.. & she gave me Ferrero Rocher!! weeeeee~~!!! thanx uh Yati! sayaaanngg kau! muahahhaha~

Anyway, d ppl dressed up real nice .. that's great.. gotta see all kinds of masquerade costomes.. & i was wearing my gothic outfit.. black leather pants, boots, shiny brown shirt & leather trench coat.. & of course, with metallic spiky/studded accessories..

Niway.. Din, Adi, Baz, Yana, Rin, Nisa Aliza & Wini came.. the rest didnt.. ouh well~..

& Aliza was really, really.. ermm... God damn Gorgeous!! WOW!! she's a rugged type of gal, & seeing her wearing a wonderful dress , hair-do, & make up..it's juz sooo cantik!! hehehe..
& i couldn't concentrate eating.. juz kept looking at her..muahaha

Niway, wen i went to get my drink, didn't realise Rin was beside me..
She's also damn diff with her hair & dress..Cantik.. hahha.. then da pretty gal beside her called me," Hi, Azri.."

i was like 'hu da hell was dat?'.. turned around & look at her.. she looked back at me..
well... hahaha.. i couldn't recognise her until she gave a smile...

Leeerrrrrr!!!!!

it's dat dogol, Yana!! muahahhaha... kaaozzz, she really look pretty sia.. with da green dress & bunga2 design on it.. but really, she's stunning, until my cup was overflowing with fruit punch... sheeesshhh~~

Well yah... Went around the ballroom & checked out on da ppl.. of course la i flirted with some of 'em.. hehe.. but jus playing around..

Niway, there were 2 surprise performances.. i played da guitar on both shows.. 1st, it was me & the rapper, Mahathir.. he composed d song & dedicated it to d gal he liked.. singing in front of her & those mushy-mushy stuff.. & was glad i helped run his romantic show.. haha. then i performed with Feizel & Jap.. Jap & i played d guitar.. it was Feizel's turn now.. he dedicated his song to d gal he liked too.. he knelt down in front of her sia! with roses & watever...! some ppl cried listening to his song.. Awwwwww, wat a damn romantic show!..

& then..? hmm... well.. actually had some last min plans, but it didn't happened.. i tot of my turn to play & sing my own song & make a dedication... for Yana actually.. :p heeee~Actually i'm supposed to b her date & she's supposed to b my date.. but i dunno, suddenly i dun feel like talking to her last nyte..
Niway didn't dedicated a song for her,cuz wen i look at d time, it's already too late.. Cuz we haf to start d Dancefloor earlier, since evrything started late..
soo, well, it's ok.. Gotta make sure evrything is perfect & have d perfect timing..

Soo.... da dancefloor started... Zaini came out 1st & danced like nobody's bzness..muahaha...den pair by pair came out & dance.. i was sitting.. Needed a smoke.. been so tired..

10min later wen i got back, d dancefloor was full of ppl.. wow.. i didn't felt like dancing though..but den the OC pulled me in to dance.. so yah.. danced with them till i got carried away with d music.. Started to ask gals to dance with them... hahha... n i mean LOTSA gals.. kept changing dance partners.. hahha...

Niway Rin went up to me n danced.. yana followed..so i was like dancing with two ppl.. den rin disappeared, leaving me & yana.. well, i started to feel uneasy dancing wit her.. i think i was blushing wen yana danced wit me...mushy-mushy feeling.. dunno la.. dun ask!

den she asked me where's da song dat i wanna dedicate.. i.. ermm... juz laughed..
we danced till dunno how long, den i decided to dance away.. n danced with dis gal, dunno la hu..muahahha.. was juz trying to make dat mushy2 feeling out of me..

eh.. ouh yah.. Faezah & her guy won da mr & miss masquerade sia...!! wa lau... dat's a surprise..
& Paran...he's da no.1 Pimp... he's surrounded by gals most of the time... muahahha...

haaisshhh.. evrything finished ard 10.40... cldn't believe Dinner & Dance ended so fast..one by one, saw ppl went out of the ballroom... felt so sad.. almost cried manz!! i'm gonna miz all that i noe so much.. manzz...

Haaissshhh.. after dat , took photos, group photos, couple photos, & so on..

Ishh... my blog is soooo long sia!!!!!!!!! ooppppsss...
ok ok.. time to end today's blog...

My ITE Adventure's ended... now's a new beginning..
Next Adventure - My Army Daze!!

haaaissshh~.. a great Dinner & Dance.. it's a Nyte dat i'll nvr forget..

'B' signing outz..

Preparing to Fail~~

2005-05-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

Weeiii~~...

sorri for not been posting for d past few weekz~....

Stress arh~!! Really, really stress uh~!..

i juz finished settling most of my probz... Pheww~.. well, last 2 weekz i had to clear up all my projekz.. n u noe wat type of projekz IT students r given ryte..
So ya, happily finished those projekz...

THEN, laz week, me & my Band( Fuse ) had to find those equipments for vocals .. yeah, some extra microphones, stands, speakers, mixer, equalizer & all... Well, my vocalist's mom was able to help n sponsor us $350.. phew.. lucky d rez of us covered d rest of d budget.. well, all dats left is to by d Equalizer n a few mics..

But fucked up, i think we bought d wrong speakers... da speakers couldn't work... AwwwwHhhh maaaannnnnnnnn!!!

ok, fine den..nvm , i haf to put aside dat prob for a while..

Okay, den came dis week's wave..
Well, i've finally proved myself dat i'm s hardworking s laz time.. i helped alot in getting Dinner & Dance ready for the show..wait wait, B4 dat..

Thankfully managed to study for Computing Maths wit Anep, Ryzal, Din & iza.. & had no difficulty doing d test on monday, except dat i didnt haf a calculator, so ya, nvm, i can handle witout a calculator..

Okay, okay.. back to D&D.. d Organising Committee were packed wit stress dis week.. We had to find n purchase alot of stuffs for D&D, especially for d ppl coming to our show.. YEAH! especially to all of u ok!!
u're gonna get some prizes if ur lucky on dat nyte.. well, juz come & see on dat day.. aLot of happening stuffs going to happen...!
dis week i came to sch evryday~, meeting Paran, giving the D&D money, helping him clearing the to-do list.. didnt haf enuff time to study my Statistics..

& here i m, juz reached home bout an hour ago.. went to sim lim square wit Paran & d rez of d gang to buy those "eye-popping" stuffs... Hey! there're damn expensive u noe! Wonder hu'll win those stuffs..

Okay okay okay.... & so i've prepared to fail of tomoro's Statistics Test.. Cuz i didnt haf enuff time to study, cuz i dont haf d textbook, cuz i dont haf anyone to tutor me..

Wow~~.. i think i dun care bout it~.. i knew i'm gonna fail from d start anyway..
so yah, i haf other important things in mind.. n i gotta find a date for D&D!! errmm, not a date actually.. a dancing partner, to b exact.. Cuz i wanna Win something!!
Awwwwhhh mannzz~, do i hafta find a date then?? Hu should i dance wit uh~...?
so many in mind, yet so so shy to ask...~ :p ahakz...

haaaiizzz... awryte.. wish me best luck for tomoro's test ya? i'm gonna greatly depend on my luck...

"B" signing outz...

Man-Thing, a Lame Movie

2005-05-03T00:54:00.000+08:00

Woaaaaaahhh...

i Think i saw someone dat i should'nt see.. or did they let me see them on purpose? hmm..

niway, movie "Man-Thing"?? the Character from Marvel..This was a very soo Uncool & lame Movie ever!!!

Anyway, dis movie was soooo cocked up that we( Ayun, Canonball, Adi, Azmi, Nizam, Reen, Anand, Fiqah, Zul, Azam, Taufik & me) made a hell of a noise in da theatre... the storyline was so lame, dat some peaple even went off halfway watching it.. Aaarghh... wat the fish manz..~ Ouh yah, i was fucken irritated wit Canonball.. sitting beside me, kept complaining & nagging, complaining & nagging... felt like shoving a big branch up his throat..
well, he's da always-nag-nag-nag guy..

Well, after dat, all of us chilled at takashimaya... sat down , relaxed, & got home around midnight..

Awryte, wanna go shower den sleep!!!~.. *yawn*

"b" signing outz..

.:.:.Time to serve my country.:.:.

2005-04-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

Awryte... i got da call....

Yea Manz... guess wat i'm talking about...

Come on... it's obviously obvious...

Okay okay, it's time to serve my NS.. I'm in da Army!

Well, juz got back home frm ITE Bishan again... another Investiture Rehearsal.. Tired & Aching.. Pheww~~... da SC Band performance didn't went well cuz i'm playing Adi's 5-string lead guitar( 1 string's gone missing) & there was no bass guitar...

Fuck~~..

& ITE Bishan's so selfish.. they wont wanna borrow us any of their music instruments... Wat da hell manz.. Thoses selfish Bastards... eh no, Selfish Bitches..

Well anyway, wen i got home, my Dad told me about da NS letter strate away.. I knew it all along.. NS gonna call me soon.. i'm gonna leave S'pore n to Tekong at 9th July..

Waahhh~~.. Haiisshh~~......

Well, i'm not disappointed i've got myself in d Army.. I'm juz sad my NS gonna b early..

Sad cuz i'm gonna miss all u ppl.. All those friends dat gonna disappear.. haishh...
Especially my classmates..Really gonna miss 'em.. Haisshh...~~ U all gonna disappear soon~.. Haisshh~~.. All these thots juz make me Haaaaiiissshhh~~~~~~...
Hey Dudes & Babes.. u juz dunno how much i'm gonna miz u..
well it's time i say dat i love u ppl! i Luv my Bez frenz.. i love my primary sch mates.. i love my springfield buddies.. Love my IT2P!! Even da ones i dislike ok!!

I'm gonna miss my fellow irritating frenz, my Uncles, my Aunties, My Mom, My dad, My Grandma, my whole family la.. Gonna miss my Teachers, my colleagues, my Admirers, my crushes!! muahahaha.... well, it's time i'm telling da truth to u guyz...dat i love u... ;-)

Haaisshhh~..Well, it's time to stop acting horny... or gayish.. muahahhhaa..
juz gonna b myself frm now on..IF i still could remember how 'myself' is like..

Awryte dudes n babes...
'B' Signing outz..

Samara or Pacifier, anybody?

2005-04-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

Okay, okay...hmmm...

Juz got home from ITE Bishan.. there's a Investiture Rehearsal over there.. Damn~.. i should've asked for her number!.. Or at least talk to her.. Stupid sia Azri..

& so i've just cut my hair, been bz at work lately, haven't finished any of my school projekz.. And i wanna watch Samara!.. or should i watch Pacifier??...

Haiishh~~..

I wanna watch Samara... it seems like a scary movie.. seems interesting.. But den, Pacifier seems like a very funny movie.. i love funny movies.. hmmm...
Maybe i should watch both~.. Weeeee~~..

Anywayz... There's a gal hu caught my eye at ITE Bishan.. well, she was alone at da canteen.. i thot she's waiting for her guy or wat.. well... i dunno y my attention got stuck towards her.. well... she kept looking at me n i kept looking at her, look at me , look at her... aarrghh....
Stupid sia Azri!! Damn~..

Well, forget it... i'm too afraid to wooo her, or any gal dat i like... Yeah.. Seems dat i wasn't da same guy i used to be.. i can't b a man towards any gal i like.. But! Atleast i'm not afraid towards any of my classmates n schoolmates.. muahahha..

Dunno y da hell i been always flirting wit my schoolmates.. well, not all.. da ones dat i dun fall for.. :p well... i'm juz flirting wit em, but it doesn't mean anything!..

Well, i'm juz plain acting.. juz wanna see their reactions wen i flirt wit em..~

muahahahha~!!

Shitz~... i haven't been doing n finishing my projekz.... gotta do something.. Should i b doing my projekz instead of blogging!! Wat da hell m i doing here!!...

Awryte Dudes & Babes~.. Gotta go.. Adious...

'B' signing outz...

Back to School..!

2005-03-28T11:06:00.000+08:00

Haiishh...

Woke up in tears dis morning~... ishh....

..Been a long time i didnt wake up crying.. ~~

Haiishh~.. dunno y all of a sudden wen i woke up, in a split sec, i'm thinking of her 1st thing in da morning... recalling evry moment of her presence years ago.. & den, i found myself crying... Shheesshh...

Her name's Aini Rosmalina... hahaa.. till now i could remember her full name.. i called her Rose.. Well.. i had a crush on her almost 7 years back then...in my secondary sch.. Guess i had a big... big....crush on her... Well i thought i've already forgotten her.. but den, today prove me rong..

y couldn't i juz simply forget her... i wonder.. Well... there's a long story btwn me n her in da secondary sch days.. Now she's gone.. dunno where she is.. Heard rumors dat she's pregnant..had a shotgun marriage.. blah blah blah..

Couldn't believe all those rumors.. frm wat i noe.. she's a very decent gal indeed..
Well... ok, ok... people change s time pass.. i noe... Well.. wherever she is , nope she's doing ok.. & i hope i can finally forget her.. Haisshh~~..

Anyway.. i manged to wake up early today.. once in a blue moon ppl see me waking up early.. even my mom n dad. if i didnt wake up crying, i think i would b waking up at dis time.. ard 11pm.. haha..

den again, i was late for sch.. well, i was lazy to go actually..

okay.. i'm in sch ryte now.. n i'm not okay.. after wat happened dis morning.. dun haf da mood to study, or eat.. or do anything.. & Anyway.. sorri i've not been updating.. i'm juz bz...& lazy... muahaha.. i'm juz making myself bz... juz got myself a part-time job ..

I'm working' at 7-11 near Parkway Parade for da time being... & been bz workin' there thru out da 1 week March holiday.. Yeah, decided to make myself real bz instead of school n home, school n home.. Phew.. & Gotta somehow prepare for my tests & finish my projeks.. Ouh man~~...

Awryte Dudes & Babes...
'B' signing outz...

Get Hitched wit Will Smith!

2005-03-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

It wasn't wat i expected...

Yeah, da movie "Hitch"..

Haha... juz enjoyed watching it at Century Square.. wit Adi, Anep, Rafie, Liz Garnett, Wini, Wan & his gal, Diana..

& also, Fairuz, da big weird bastard tag along wit us...out of nowhere! yea, he met us at da school bustop.. he's a one big arse hole hu juz likes tailing people.. none uf our IT department wants him around.. & i dislike his presence...

Well, cuz he likes to act cool..but he's juz acting damn weird.. & loves talking crap.. u noe , all those non-sensical kinda talk from outer space.. But still, i pity him wen we treated him like an outcast juz now... ouh well, it's his fault for having dat kinda attitude..dat weird, lame, stupid & irritating attitude..

Anyway!!.. "Hitch" was extremely humorous.. i found out dat da movie was actually about a date doctor, Alex Hitch(Will Smith), goes ard town & helps ppl hu juz dont noe how to date a gal they fall for... haha.. i like da part wen Alex & his client, da fat guy, danced to da Usher song 'Yeah'.. & also da part when Alex's tryin' to teach him wat to do wen he's at his date's doorstep.. & kissed each other...! eeeeeiiiii!! Muahahahhaa..

Hmmmz... Wish i'm a kinda guy dat noes how to date~... ;-)

yeah, i was damn noisy again in da thetre... but well, nvm , at least it's a funny movie... :p

Okay den.. Ryte now i'm figuring outz wat 3D scenery to make on my 3D Modelling project..
Awryte peepz.. Chiaoz..

Gd Nytez & Swit Dreamz.. 'B' signing outz..

i'm back..

2005-03-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

Halo peepz...

i'm back...

i noe u peepz r wondering y i've not been blogging for a long time...
Well, sorri i've been away for so long..i'm kinda bz wit sum personal things. & they really got my mind go haywire... & made me like, in no mood to blog anything..

Not even a single thing a blogged... er, except for da previous one... haha..... 'Azri is Dead'..
Well.. i'm juz brain dead dis paz few weeks... Bz wit school projects, assignments n stuffs..

& yeah, didnt prepare at all for my Statistics & Matrices test... i was sitting in front of dat paper, n my mind went totally blank... n i didint even pass up the tutorials...

& i've been thinking y da hell i've not been focusing on my studies.. Well, dats one of da personal issues dats been running in my mind.. yeah.. i mean, wat da hell m i doing here? i wanna focus on my studies, but i cant..

...& i'm thinking where m i going ryte now...

i'm not a smart kid anymore, i cant decide on things, always play games n not paying attention in class... & i noe it, & regret doing all these...but i stil kept on doing 'em...

i fell like,' y r u beiong useless?? wat da hell m i doing here, wasting my dad's money??' ..

Sheesh.. wish i could juz kill myself..

Guess i've been thinking too much... Aargh, wat da hell!... Anyway, Anep & Wan decided to make a class pit instead of a class picnic.. ok, sure.. anything goes wit me... so they told evrybody there's a change of plans... & persuading them, 'saiko' them... hahaha... sukati mereka lah.. i'm da 'Okay Go' type, so, any plans will do.... but my classmates... they r sooo..like... 'Cerewet'.. ishh.... y dont i give each of ;em a flying kick to their groins & stop being so childish-like~..

Ouh well, at least evryone decided on organising a class pitz... hey ppl, hope it's gonna b on 21st march k.. cuz i'm not sure i'm free on any other dayz.. i might b working~...

Awrytez... gotta go now.. n sori again for not blogging for da paz few weekz.. i wasn't juz myself at da time.. mayb not even now.. For those hu missed me, miss ya too.. ;-)

Awrytez, 'B' signing outz~...

Resting in Pieces

2005-03-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

Kau peluk aku sebelum membunuhku..

Tersenyum melihatku.. Merenung melihatmu..

Kau menungguku, menungguku terjatuh..

Setiap langkah tertuju, setiada dalam renungku..

Aku menunggumu, menunggumu..

Menunggumu, mati di depanku!

depanku, didepanku..

ohh...

Apa yang kau lakukan dibelakangku?..

Apakah kau tunjukkan dihadapanku?..

Apa yang kau lakukan dibelakangku...

Dibelakangku, dibelakangku..

Dibelakangku!?

::::Azri is Dead::::

...for now

::: Constantine :::

2005-02-11T21:41:00.000+08:00

Ok, i'll give a full 5 stars out of 5 for da movie Constantine.. shiok ah... very thrillin'... n funny..

muahahaha..

Those hu haven't watched Constantine, i recommend u ppl watch it! cuz i juz watched it at da 2pm show at Century Cineplex.. :p n watched it wit Azmi, Fir, Adi, Baz & Khai.. muahahaha...

Fir complained dat i was so 'kecoh' in da theatre.. well, i kept shouting n laughing like hell...
hahhaha... well, its been a while since i watched wit someone... usually watch movies alone...
now i noe how irritating n 'kecoh-able' i can b wen i'm NOT watching movies alone...

isshh.... dunno y i'm like dat.. hahha...

hey.. Dewa's coming to singapore at 27th feb, dont u noe?? Concert's at Fort Canning... dunno if there r still tix selling... ishh...u noe, i hate it wen plans crash wit some other important things at da last min.. haaizz... yeah... i think i cant go, dats y i haven't bought da tix..

Damnz... i wanna go.. n i think i cant even go for Planet Muzik concert... i'm so busy wit Fuse... haaisshhhh.. nvm, sooner or later i'll take a vacation frm evrything around me.. hahaa..

Ryte now lying on my bed... soo tired tonyte.. but s usual ar, cant sleep.. lucky tomoro's a saturday..

k ppl, anything juz drop a taggie.. ;-) i'm gonna continue some music researching... by da way, most Peter Pan songs r unique & nice... like da song i'm hearing now, "semua tentang kita"..

muahahha.. awryte lah.. "B" signing outz..

What a Weekend

2005-02-07T09:34:00.000+08:00

Phewww.. Juz came to school .. ryte now sitting at my desk... well, not much learning ryte now..So i juz gonna blog in some things..

hmm.. let's see...

ouh.. went for wini's chalet on saturday... b4 dat i wen out for awhile alone at 2pm.. well, got sumwhere i haf ta go.. den, meet up wit anep in da bus at 5.30pm...we gonna meet yana, rin & her guy at Parkway...

Damn.. traffic sux around marine parade.. jam siak.... den yana sms me... " eh kau pat mane huh? aku ngah sorg ni dari kul 5pm." sumthing like dat ar she msg me... muahahahaha.... she's alone. anyway, me n anep reached Parkway at 6.25pm... ish, 25 mins late...

niway, wen we got to kfc n met up wif yana, we haf to wait for rin.. she'd b coming late siak... haaaissshh... meanwhile, we went to help yana browse da shops on wat ta buy for wini..

muahahaha, she got her a bottle of shower gel, & ermm, a small bottle of hand lotion.. hehehe

Eh wini! sorri i didnt gave u any presentz... nvm, at least me & anep entertain u wif my guitar & his sheesha.. :p

ouh, ya, wini's chalet was really fully packed wif ppl manz... lotsa ppl.. i tink most of them frm ITE tampines too.. hmmm.. anep n i plan to go home at 1am.. but anep wanna wait for adi n da rest to come 1st.. haiisshhh.. i think i'm gonna b going home late again... hope my dad wont b angry too much..

well... snep's sheesha surely was damn fun..haha.. till wini's mum, or auntie(i wasn't she hu she is) also join in da circle of sheesha smokers.. hahaha..

anep went off at 3Pm++.. i decided to stay till dawn..as i'm already late, might s well stay there till later.. da rest of us chilled at da beach.. adi, azat, wini baz, khaicak , fir were dozing there.. haha, i couldn't sleep, although i'm dead sleepy.. rafie n aliza were still awake.. i was boring & my mind started to think & think & think.. haaisshh, it's alwaes dis time of nyte dat my mind wld be damn active & run through its past memories...

hahaha, couldn't help it. i strolled along da shores, sat there, gazed da sea, da litez, da stars, da moon.. dat nyte, da moon was diff, funny.. i think its an eclipse.. it's cresent-shaped at da bottom, like its smiling.. & its not white in color.. its glowing yellow.. as if da sun is behind it...

it looks cool..but awkward too... hahaha

Woahh.. dis blog is long.. hahhaa.. sorri... i'll try make it short...

hmmm, i reached home at 8.15am.. it was yesterday, sunday.. strate away went to sleep...
Couldn't go for my Band session wit Fuse... Sorri Fuse... nxt week b going for sure..

i woke up at around 3pm .. took my long shower, had my late lunch..
den, i was getting bored.. i decided to go watch da Mocca concert at Esplanade..
well, most of ma buddies haf watched it on Fri & Sat.. left wif only me..

hmmm, so i decided to go alone den.. well, i haf ta get used to my loneliness, datz y i've been starting to spend most my leisure time alone.

But den, Irfan msg me saying," eh rocker, kau kat mane? nak jmpe? aku rindu kau ah.."
kpala buto ar dat guy!!! hahhahaha. da mcm gay siak.. isshhh.. niway, i told him i wanna go watch Mocca... we wanna come along.. awryte den... sheeesshh, y do i haf so many frens around me acting like gays???? muahahaha.. i mean, guys as well as gals too, dey juz like to "manja" around me... isshh! please, limit urselves! No wonder ppl say i'm gayish!!

hmm, well niway, met dat dumb guy at Kembangan mrt at 6.50pm.. supposed to meet him IN da train at da last cabin at Bedok Mrt... sableng sungguh..

we reached Esplanade at around 7.20, i think.... da KL band, Couple, was performing da song "she's not mine" wen we arrived..

Hey, Couple aren't so bad at all.. dey were good manz... i like all of their songs except one, da one wif da gitarist blowing da recorder.. dat song's for kids.. hahhaha.. it went like "Brush ur teeth, go to school.. Brush ur teeth & go to school.." muahahhaa

at last, watched Mocca perform at around 8.20pm.. Woahh.. now i now how da vocalist look like.. She's soo sweet... & cute... muahahahha... i like cute ladies.. :p.. but she looks like she's ard 23++ yrs old.. i think cuz of her dressing.. ouh nvm.. i tot i wanna get myself an autograph, but da Q was so long & croweded... so nvm, me n Irfan went to suntec to her mum's workplace, got ourselves free dinner.. muahahaha.. we went to eat at Sky Garden.. well, i there's a Sky Garden, but i dunno where it is, & y ppl like going Sky Garden so much..

So, dis is my FIRST time going there, & da time i finally found where SKy garden is... muahaahha... for couple of yrs i've been finding dis dumb place..
& juz yesterday...i got to now y ppl like to go there.. i mean, that's da Couple's Hideout.. muaahaha.. couples make out ovr there without ppl disturbing... issshhhh... no time to go to these kinda places for ppl like me. muahahaa.. Solo man ar katakan..

Reached home around 11.30pm.. my body's dead tired, but i still cant sleep.. My mind's active again.. it comes avernyte.. haaaisshhh... i sat in my room, smoked & smoked, staring out my window.. waiting 4 my mind to stop thinking & running my past memories..den i go to sleep...

Well, dats wat i do evrynyte... dats y i always come to sch late...

Awryte.. gonna haf lesson shortly.. so see ya later..

'B' signing out..

Me & ma Band

2005-01-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

helloooo..

haaaiiissshhh~.. Juz got home 20mins ago frm yishun.. Yup, i got my Band session dis afternoon.. tired.. exhausted... sleepy... Well.. juz now at d session, we had a short meeting about ur band's future.. we gonna start performing for weddings soon.. i dunno wen, but its really coming soon!

Anyway.... erm... not to b arrogant or wat.. my whole band, Fuse, called me a savior..

Huh? was i? wat did i do dat saved them??.... realli confused.. Till i kept asking...
Well, they said i was their savior cuz they were lucky to choose me s their replacement for their former drummer... they said..ermm, they said dat cuz of me, they managed to cover up many songs...& cuz i was all rounder..means i can play guitar, bass guitar, drums, & sing.. & now, i'll b researching for them Indon & Indie rock songs.. woah, i couldn't believe Fuse mostly needs my potiential... well... i dunno wat ta say but thanks Fuse!! i'm seriously surprised dat my talents are of great use to ma band...

...i think i'm feeling a lil' arrogance in me ryte now..... issshhhh....!!

well niway, my band juz covered up 'ada apa denganmu' song frm Peterpan.. Ya manz.. both my Fuse band & my Match Pax Kedeng band are playing dis song at d same time.. hahhaa..i'm influencing them..hehhee.. anyway, i'm really exhausted teaching Fuse da Peterpan song... cuz i tought each of my band members how to play in their roles.. even da drummer! i'll b da lead guitarist in dis song... da drummer will b Alep's Dad..hu created Fuse.. & da former drummer of Flybaits.. Cool huh!?! heheheh..

i tot da bassist, da guitarists, & also alep's dad on how to play d song .. sheeesshhh... they haf no experience in playing Indon songs... damn difficult to teach them juz now... haaaiisshh.~ & ya, Alep really wanted to sing dis song so much, so ya, i let him sing..even though he is our parmenant lead guitarist.. hahhaa

hmmm..... so tired.... well.. i got some strange, irritating feeling ryte now.... i dunno wat feeling is dis... ish... i think i'm missing someone... Ishh!!!!!!! hu siak i'm missing!!!!!!??
Ok let's c... ryte now i've got some emotional reaction..& it tells me dat i'm missing someone... But Who!?!!? Wa lau!!! Azri, kau mampus taknak!!

Hu siak i'm missing....or is it dat i'm missing something????...

Arrggghh... wat da Hell... Dun care la someone or something... at least i'm not stressed up today.. except dat i'm tired.. hahaha

Awryte ppl.. 'B' signing outz..
K Chiaoz..

Today's a Tiring Day..

2005-01-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

Woo hoo!

Yes ar.. i passed my NAPFA! & 4 da 1st since da laz 5 years, i passed my shuttle run!!

Woooo Hooooooo!!

hmmm... let's see.. i got 9.9 sec for my shuttle run, 10 min 10 sec for my 2.4km distance.. 50 sit-ups, 8 pull-ups, 230cm for my standing broad jump, and 45 cm for my sit & reach.. i think i get a silver.. nvm, i like silver more den gold anyway...

Sheesh.. & it's been a tiring day... can't simply chill wif adi n da gang juz now... i slept wen they were singing & talking bout stuffs... i've got double vision while running in da 2.4.. my headache's gettin' worse...! hmm, wat to do, wat to do.. hahaha.

niway, i broke my specs yest!... i mean, my specs broke by itself, wen i was wiping da lenses.. damn...~ i'm gonna wear contact lens evryday 4 da time being.. & anyway, some of my classmates started calling me 'Babyboy'.. aarrgghh!! malu sak... i dunno y they started calling me that... hahha..

Ate alot today... even ate & finished up yana's roti prata... wahahahaa... wat happened to me today manz.. well, she offered it to me.. :p

ouh yah... hey yana! sori i didnt say thanx or wat wen u offered ur roti prata..

dunno la y i juz kept quiet..... hmmm.... y siak?? hahaa, dogol! well, anyway, i juz finished eating again... eat lamb, fish, rice, egg, mee goreng... i hope i didnt eat too much..

by da way.. our class is da wildest class in skool.. juz imagine.. which gal frens wanna go inside a guys' toilet?? & which boy wanna go inside a gal's toilet & chill there? woahh... i was sooo damn embarassed wen nisa liza & wini went in suddenly wen i was only wif my towel...! :X

i was going to bathe after NAPFA... hahhaa.. wini so cheeky sak.. wanna pull off my towel huh? come, come, lai lai!! :p hahahaha..

well, basically, our class, IT2P, is da most havoc & craziest class i've ever come across... IT2 Psychos.... dats wat i call it... haha

Phewww~.... i'm exhausted.. think i'm gonna sign out & take a rest.. k chaoz!

Sleepover!! Woo Hoo...

2005-01-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari

Raya

Haji!!!!!

woo hooo!! Holidayz.. yea yea! Niway, i'm now at Adi's house... & i hope i'm gonna be sleeping over at his place...

Well. few minutes ago, got some arguments wif my Dad... Biasa lah.. He scolds me wen i said i'll b sleeping over at woodlands.. i was keeping my cool, until he demanded for Adi's address & tel. no... wat d fish manz.. So, i shot back at him.. told him if he doesn't believe i'm at adi's house, den he can dare come here. well, i dunno y d fish he always haf to follow my mum's naggings.. doesnt he noe how mum takes care of me n my 2 bros are like taking care of gals... i'm turning 20 sial!! & they r stil like taking care of me like they r taking care of a daughter!! i'm a SON, damn it!!

haaissshhh... well.... forget bout it... dis is y i'm not so nice person.. for almost 4 years , since sec 3, i'm fighting gor freedom. No wonder i'm a bit like a sissy... Cibai siak... cuz of how my parents lah.. Welcome to my life..

Niway dis morning , wen celebrating Hari Raya Haji.. i 'salam' my parents, to show respect.. Mum kissed my forehead, & said , " ur turning 20 now.. Better b ready to b responsible person.. dat means u can already get married.. Wen u gonna get married??"

i was thinkin' like " wat da fish?!!??! my parents has been always wanting me to get married early...dunno y.. & last time they said, Virgo guys r 'miang'.. wat da hell r they tryin' to say manz.... :-S

Well... i think cuz they stil dunno dat i'm already single... ish... damn... if i knew, i shouldn't haf talked wif them about her, i mean, my ex gf. shitz..

i hope they forgotten her face.

ouh ok nvm den..Niway, ryte now waiting for Anep, Mus, Azmi , Wan & Aliza to come... i'm d 1st to slack at Adi's house ..

by da way, tomorro gonna meet Zul & Azmi, & we gonna survey some masquerade masks for Dinner & Dance.. woo hoo..

Awryte... k Chaoz!!

Dinner & Dance News!

2005-01-19T22:59:00.000+08:00

Phewww... Got home frm sch at 9.30pm.. got SC meeting after my lessons today..

Well.. today i woke up d latest... nearly 11am... damn.. i missed da whole of Uncle Dinyar's lesson... hmmm.... k nvm.. at least i haf time to pass up my 2nd Assignment... by tomoro..

Hey guys!! if u want the D&D tix, we gonna distribute 300 tix for the early birdz!.. we gonna start distributing on 28th Jan, i think... & den d laz 600 tix will b out starting 1st May, awryte?

k, hope my whole class goes for D&D.. Cuz i'm gonna miz u all more & more wheneva i keep thinking its our laz 6mths of ITE... hehhehehehhehe... i'm gonna miz bully & being bullied wif u dudes & babes...! :p

Woo Hooo..

Ermm.. ouh ya... my classmates started talkin' of making a class chalet...
Biler korg nak uat chalet!!!?!??!?!?!

haaaissshhh... 7 i'm still thinking bout my Stardom band.. Wen u guys wanna start practising?!?!?! i'm really serious wen it comes to performing music..

well..nvm.. i hope i can get some early sleep today.. My Eyes r still wide open!!! aarrgghh.. like a farking Owl.. hahahha..

ok Chaoz..

Restless..

2005-01-18T01:18:00.000+08:00

haaiiissshhh~.... cant sleep... damn.. n havin' a bad headache ryte now...
Niway, got a couple of blackoutz in sch.. lucky no one saw...

Well, anywayz.... juz finished doing halfway on my assgnment... n i haf to pass it up to uncle dinyar tomorrow... i mean.... today, 18th.. haha

Speakin' abouit 18th.... i couldnt sleep evrynyte, Esp on d 18th.... every time i juz sit by my window, & smoke till i got tired of smokin'..& it's evrynyte.. my mind's juz cant stop thinking of some things....they wont go away.. the painful thoughts juz dont wanna go away frm my mind...
Especially tonyte.... evry 18th of the mth, dats d most painful day i haf ta go thru....
n surely, i wont b in a gud mood in school later....
i really hate dis day, n i hate d 18th of evry mth.... & i hate feb 13th too!!
arrrgghh....
well... at least mard & rin made me forgot bout d thoughts in my mind 4 a while juz now...
hahahah... what? hu's mard & rin?... well, they r d deadly duo hu always tags together.... & likes tryin' to annoy me in msn!! like wat ppl say in malay, "tak kacau tak sah!" day always try to irritate me.. hahaa... n dats wat dey did juz now... hahhaha..
Too bad i was nvr irritated by them.. juz plain acting..... hah! dunno y i like actin' so much..
mard is a dogol...dogol's a word i like to call sumone wen i juz lurrrrvvee bullying him/her! wahahhahaha.... so now u noe wats d real meaning of dogol in my vocab! ;-) shhhhhh, dun tell anyone, keep it to urself...
Anyway, u dont wanna noe mard..or rin.. u'll get irritated by them if ur not like me....

damn~.. i hate tonyte.... its like so torturing for me..... well, dis is wat i get for knowing a damn evil person in d 1st place...

Awrite guyz & gals, dudes & babes... i'm signing off... gonna go for a smoke...

k chaoz. . . .

Boring, Long day~..

2005-01-17T16:33:00.000+08:00

Boring manzz.... haaisshh~~~...

Ryte now slouching on my seat, listening to Uncle Dinyar's lesson... hmmm.......
okay, anyway, i've deleted my whole blog & started a new fresh one.. got some technical problems ar... hahha.. Awrite so, like i said... Dinner & Dance tix are selling at $20 each... My Audition for Stardom '05 is at 23 Feb... & ermm... i think dats about it... hahhaa...

well... i've got nothing much to say today..... not many things happened today..

heyy~~ i almost forgot..... someone's b'day yesterday.... Happy 19th B'day, Nisa!!! Wooo Hooooo!! Pipi mau maintain!! ;-) *winkz* *winkz* hahahaha.....

Awryte guyz..... Azri Signin' outz... C ya later..!